A broken lightbulb buried in a hole is brighter than my future.
@I cut your face, so don't work in solar. Maybe your future is in geology.
@Empshok, my future is 6 feet under.
@I cut your face, ah...you're a mortitian!
No, but seriously, don't give up. Any time you feel like that, do something nice for somebody else. And don't tell anyone. It helps you feel less worthless, and over time, all of the good you do will be impossible to deny. Regardless what you think of yourself, if you do think about how you can make others happy, you'll feel better too.
If you have depression like me, you also have to train yourself to seperate how you feel with who you are. Feelings are rarely genuine representations of reality. They'll exaggerate, twist, and delude. But they are important; just don't let them lead you. LEAD your heart, don't follow it.
@I cut your face, furthermore, if you feel depressed constantly, don't overlook medication. I went without medication for the first 25 years of my life. I got through, but I'm taking meds now and they are keeping my emotions under MY control. Even with medication, I still have to remember that mindset. It's a lifelong battle that I intend to win. And I really hope you do, too.
@Empshok, thank you. It's just been a really tough...last 5 years haha. Therapy is soon. Just kinda hit a breaking point this week.
@I cut your face, I feel ya. I got my bachelor's degree in 2013, working towards becoming a physician's assistant. Turns out my GPA wasn't high enough to get into the program. So I've been trying alternate paths since, but finally after so many years, I've been accepted into a Nursing program. It's difficult to have hope when it seems like the best job I qualify for with a BS degree is a dead-end job. But it's not my fault, and it's not yours. These companies that all demand experienced workers for entry-level jobs will fail, and better ones will take their place. Sorry...tangent, but, hopefully, my situation can resonate a bit with you.
@Empshok, it really does. I went from graduating high school with a 3.6 gpa and getting a full ride to a state University to: losing the scholarship, having to change from my dream major (engineering) because I couldn't get past calculus, transferring to a small local college, and now failing my new major. I was supposed to have graduated by this coming spring (graduated high school in 2014). But at this rate I'll be lucky to even graduate within the next year or 2. And I wanted to go to grad school, but it looks like that's not happening either because of my gpa. I've been putting in the hours. I've been studying. But I'm running out of time and money to keep going. I've become a burden on my family, I've neglected my friends because of all of my time studying and now none of them talk to me any more, and it feels like the world is crashing around me. I'm so tired of trying and trying and trying and always coming up mediocre. I have no right to complain but every day I want to scream.
@I cut your face, I think a big part of that is a shjtty school system with very little demanded from instructors. But I have changed majors so many times...I started my college in 2008. At one point I wanted to go into chemical engineering...till I learned I such at anything past second year chemistry. And calc 2 almost drove me insane. Literally. I was having nightmares about numbers. Damned Taylor Series...but in the end, what matters to me is that I support my family and help people. Fvck all those C's and retaken courses if I still get hired. The nursing program didn't give a damn about my chem class gpa, just that I passed it. It didn't factor in to the gpa they calculated. My general gpa of 3.1 shot up to 3.58, putting me above the average accepted enrollee. Keep at it, my friend. You will be a gift to your field.
@Empshok, we need more people like you. Thank you for taking the time to tell me your story. I feel a bit better now. I'll do my best to keep my chin up!
@I cut your face, and you help me with my depression by saying that. And that's all I think needs to be said.
I think the light refracting off his polished head is actually what’s brighter than your future.
I thought it was dead...