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This is why I deal with autocorrect every now and then, at least is gets what I mean most of the time
“Every day you need to give yourself a present. Be it a nap in your chair, a lego set, or a cup of rich kahluah coffee.” Look up “mbtrd Damn fine cup of coffee” on jewtube the next time you do something nice for yourself.
@SirLordKraftDinner, Actually, I have found that "treating yourself" constantly leads to worsening depression. You need to force yourself to do things. Having a shower and brushing your teeth is a major accomplishment when you're really bad, but you need to move on and do the next thing to distract yourself. I have also found that I need to be around people, not interact with them necessarily, but just be around people. Going to the library and playing video games on my laptop when no one's home (and have nothing to do) is so much better than being in an empty house/apartment all day
@Emaciations, I agree on forcing yourself to do stuff, outside or be around people, however, I seem to feel nothing of it. All the self help advice says it makes you happy or fulfilled, but I guess that doesn’t work for me. Maybe happiness is just a concept created to sell cheap credit or movie tickets. Already have morning routine and improving on the house so that’s healthy, but I still feel like it’s all for nothing. That’s where quantifiable metrics come in. If you can’t feel happiness, then tie it to a tangible concept that exists. Like a coffee, a new desk ornament, or a beer for when after you spill your spaghetti when a girl says your pants look nice. Call it materialism, but this self help stuff isn’t getting results for me.
@SirLordKraftDinner, Coping mechanisms are different for everyone. I got addicted to shopping therapy and wasted a whole lot of money on it, and money that I didn't have. You need to find something that works for you... Also if you're striving for happiness, you will always fail. No one is happy all of the time. You need to get yourself in a place where you feel like you're going in a good direction... There is always light at the end of the tunnel. If you don't see it, it's because the depression is masking it. It might take a long time, you may need help, you might need medication, but one day there will be light. You're not alone, and that is a powerful weapon. I've been to group therapy multiple times over the years (mine were 8 to 12 weeks at a time), and each time I've arrived at a better place than the last time I went. It might not be right for you, but there are so many tools and resources out there, that something will work for you, you just need to keep trying
@SirLordKraftDinner, Strive for contentment, not happiness
@Emaciations, getting help requires me to check a box on an application form for a job I want. Another positive step (Have you ever been treated for mental illness?) That checkbox effectively nullifies the application. Sure you feel better, but it’s on paper that you are broken and shouldn’t be allowed as much personal freedom. (Is he on his meds? He had a bad day, will he kill himself?) It’s akin to needing a new part for your car. Are you willing to install a part that was broken in the past but is refurbished? It’s better to keep things under wraps to enjoy the freedom as a functional adult. As for light at the end of the tunnel, well, I’m not certain it even exists. It’s like a story you tell yourself that existing is worth it. I agree we all have bad days and good days, but I don’t get good days really anymore. Just days. Even when I am at something I should be happy at, I just am not. Probably part of getting older. You seem to have things going at the very least which is nice.
@SirLordKraftDinner, I don't have things going for me. My life is broken and destroyed because of the things I've done due to my mental illnesses. I have one thing going for me that could give me a chance at an out from my mess of a life. That's my light at the end of the tunnel... Also what's the point of freedom if you can't enjoy it? I would happily spend the rest of my days in a mental hospital (where I've been more times than I can count) with no freedom whatsoever, because I'm much happier there. I live in the US, however, and that costs money. Money that no one I know has... You say you you do things you "should be happy at". Why? Why should those things make you happy? Because they used to? People change. You will never get that child like happiness back. There are things you can enjoy, but you'll never have that happiness back. I haven't felt "proper" happiness since I was about 6 (now 25). When people say that you need to live in the now, you can't dwell on old emotions
@SirLordKraftDinner, either. You need to rediscover who you are. Find things that you can tolerate and build off that. You have 100% control over your feelings. If you think sad thoughts, you will be sad. I used to think of bunnies hopping in a field everytime a suicidal thought crossed my mind. I focused on the bunnies as hard as I could. After a moment had passed, I was feeling a bit better and could move on with my day... If you want to be sad you will be sad. You need to change your way of thinking. It isn't easy, and will take work
@Emaciations, regardless of your stance on your life’s intactness, you at least have some solutions and steps in mind. As for the freedom, I can’t enjoy it behind a grated window of an institution because I know there is more of it outside where no one dictates your schedule, your life, and slips medication that even scientists don’t fully understand into your meals. (I don’t understand how the brain works at all and scientists have ideas, but it seems like they are guessing) when I say “should be happy” I mean going with the family on the weekend. It’s a nice occasion that should generate positive feeling, but it just doesn’t for me. Social scenarios are easier with cuban libres. My childhood happiness is dead, but the memories of it are still there. Be it lego, hotwheels, or pixar movies. It’s good to dust off that box every once and a while. (Unrelated, but childhood activities don’t die, they can get bigger. Like hotwheels cars moves onto driving fast and eating ass) As for money-
@Emaciations, as for money, there are always ways to make more. Just an Finite amount of time. When I replace my car, I am thinking of being a delivery driver to make more money on the side. I don’t know how to solve your conundrums, but at least you have a drive to make things better. I can’t knock a guy for effort.
@Emaciations, that is true. I am trying speed dating and I am bullshjtting myself into thinking I won’t be a desperate loser. I am a desperate loser trying. Though feelings of futility might be an exception? For example, a dream I had was to be a gunsmith. I could do something I enjoy, but make a living off that. As a Canadian, this is impossible. It’s like legislation against my happiness. To become a gunsmith in Canada, you need certification that the state will recognize. You literally need to go to Belgium to take a french course, file paperwork to not only start a business but also to practice gunsmithing in the business as well, they look at your history, check for mental illnesses, check for any anti government leanings, check with your friends to verify you aren’t a lunatic, and finally you need to file for a loan for a bank. Do that, open up shop, and get shut down because your government hates your passion. I try to feel like my dream is possible, but also the government is-
@SirLordKraftDinner, I didn't once. I just wanted to die. It wasn't about ending pain, I felt nothing, I just saw no point to it all. It took years, and some ICU/ER visits, but I now don't want to die every second of the day. Sometimes the thought crosses my mind, but I'm able to push through it. You won't feel bad forever, but you do need to work at it. You said that you have a morning routine, good. Don't let it break down. You'll feel worse if you let your routines break down. Everything I've said applies to me, because I can't put myself in your life. Everyone's different, but you can't give up... I bet you, one day, maybe years from now, you'll remember this conversation and realize that I wasn't talking complete shjt... Or just live a full life and see if you can prove me wrong :P
@SirLordKraftDinner, pt2 of gun stuff: It’s like the government and the predominant voters don’t want people like me to be around.
@Emaciations, we lead different lives, but we seem to have some similar points. I don’t want to die today, but if I get Tboned by a snapchatting teenager on an intersection I guess that’s how I go. The conscious decision to not wear a seatbelt, however, that’s the stuff I ponder. I hope you get to that light at the end of the tunnel, and that your stains of the past are forgotten and never come up again.
No, no he don't.