Must be nice to forget the bad ones, thats all my brain lets me retain 😅
@robee, I don’t really retain much of anything, so I’m constantly living in the present.
@I Are Lebo, not too far behind you myself
@I Are Lebo, I can't retain much in detail past a few weeks except for the knowledge that I can't retain them so I'm constantly saddened at my lack of preserving my own history.
@robee, for me it really depends. For some things I can only remember the bad and for others I only remember the good
@FrankNStein, we are all transitory beings, and our histories are just the lies we tell ourselves to feel better (or worse) about what’s happened.
@I Are Lebo, I just want to have some comfort. I remember vaguely when I forgot what my father smelled like and it was the most devastating thing that made me miss my history more than anything else.
@FrankNStein, I don’t remember what my dad smells like and he’s asleep in the next room.
It’s strange, the small details we get hung up on. You didn’t care what he smelled like until you couldn’t smell him anymore.
@I Are Lebo, it wasn't necessarily the smell. I still had bottles of his cologne, which is what he smelled like most of the time. It was more the fact that I didn't feel safe or held when I smelled it, which was what I'd always felt when I smelled him before that. That was the real moment I lost my father, beyond the day he died. When I couldn't remember what it felt like to be hugged by him anymore, not really, and everything was constructed by going "this is what x probably felt like". Your first death is when you stop, your second is when your loved ones stop remembering you. And even though I know who he was, I don't remember anything about him intrinsically anymore, it's all constructive memories now.
@FrankNStein, yeah, it’s the sad truth. We all die two deaths.
Hey kids, can you lighten up
But...that’s all the memories I have.