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@Diade, don’t be fine, it’s ok to be broken. You are gonna have to find some one can talk to. I highly recommend a therapist if available, if not try the Suicide hotline. Not everyone has the means to pay but, listen here, if you ever played a video game, the harder the level is and the more enemies show up, means your going in the right direction, but you might need to level up your skills a little to be able to combat the coming scenario. I think just slowly leveling up is the best way to move forward. Understand that it’s gonna be slow and take a chunk of time. If you have a friend you can trust 1,000,000% percent start with them, and just say you are feeling down and need some one to listen
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@DrSin, i do have a therapist appointment soon, but it feels not soon enough, and I'm tempted to cancel it because it feels like it doesn't matter anyway
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@Diade, which I'm aware is my depression talking...
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@Diade, don’t cancel it, I’m rooting for you! I want you to go, I believe you can go and you’ll see a smile on my face when you come back and tell me you went. I wanna let know you I’m eagerly awaiting for you to respond back and tell me you went
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@Diade, Yeah, definitely keep the appointment. You’re right, that’s the depression talking for sure. When I first struggled with depression, talking to someone - whether it was family, close friends, or eventually a therapist - was THE biggest help for me. Surround yourself with the best people and support system possible. The most frustrating thing is the time it takes to get back on the right track, but that doesn’t mean you’re not on your way. If you’re not already, get some exercise in at least a few times a week. Everybody always says it helps, and they say that because it’s true! And depending on where you live, hopefully you can get out and enjoy some sun. Helps me tremendously, really. Once I got out of my bout with depression, I had more confidence and pride than ever. I put the work in and turned things around. You can absolutely do it as well. You got this.
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@Diade, join the military, ever since I made that decision and have begun preparing myself mentally/physically I have felt a lot better.
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@ Seductive Cheeto, "If you wish to join the U.S. military, be aware that people with current mood disorders or a history of certain mental illnesses cannot serve. The U.S. Department of Defense has a directive which provides a detailed list of the mental health conditions that prevent a person from being in the armed services." Don't listen to the guy above me, however I am also going to check back on this post in a week and cheer you on for going to see a therapist. Know my opinion does not matter as a complete stranger, but know that I am proud of you for reaching out instead of staying silent. You are stronger than you know and your life matters, I believe in you and you are going to do great in your appointment because you are in the right mindset of seeking help which is the first step towards healing. See you soon!
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@Diade, oh bro, therapy? It's the best. Absolutely the best. For some people it doesn't work for them, and if it doesn't at least try to shoot for anti-depressants, I have plenty of friends on them and they're doing MUCH better than before. Things seem bleak as fvck now, but trust me it's gets better. You're worth sticking around :)
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@Diade, I’ve been dealing with depression/suicidal thoughts the last 10 years of my life. Things didn’t start changing until I realized I was in control of the way I was feeling and that I was choosing to be miserable. I didn’t have a direction or purpose and just fed my negative thoughts by feeling sorry for myself or feeling worthless. I thought that I couldn’t change because “that’s just who I am”. A few years ago I found out that that was bullshjt. I learned that although I might not always be in control of my situations, I am in control about how I think about situations and how I react. For the last 4 years I’ve been reading and practicing Stoicism. It’s really put things into perspective and changed my life for the better. Now these depressive episodes come and go. I’m much better at managing the negative thoughts and emotions. Each new episode lasts less time than the one before it and I can honestly say I feel more in control of my life than I ever have.
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@Diade, I can't pretend I know how to help. I'm in the same boat. A few months back, I realized I have no reason to live. No ambition, goals, friends, no end in sight. I had a gun to my head. I then realized I hadn't had Chipotle in a while (by far my favorite restaurant). I then figured well at least let me eat first. It gave me time to think. Yeah, I dont have a reason to live, but I dont have a good reason not to either. I told myself fine, if something drastic changes for the worse, I'll do it. A few weeks later, on my birthday no less, I walk outside of my apartment to find my truck had been broken into. Window shattered, missing around $1600 in tools. I'm an electrician, and they are essential to what I do. So I made the obvious choice of getting a bottle of rum, then I went to Chipotle for lunch, thinking it would be my last time. It was just too damn good. I thought to myself, its not the end of the world. Maybe things will get better. Anyway, it's been 2 months (now that I
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@Petersquatch, (2/2) think about it, it's been 2 months to the day.) My life hasn't gotten any better. I'm even more in debt, and I don't have a good path out. Anyway, I'm basically living to eat, in hopes that things will get better later on. I'm hoping that a few years down the line I'll look back and say "Wow, I'm glad I didn't pull the trigger. I would have missed out on this wonderful family I've started, and all the great experiences we've had" But you never know. It could be 15 years later, and nothing has changed, and I will wish I would have done it. Anyway, I'm basically saying do what makes you happy, or in my case, fill the void inside with mexican food. You don't have to be happy. I literally can't think of a time in the last 10 years I've truly been happy. TLDR: Fill the void inside with food. Hope that one day you will look back on your life and be glad you pushed through.
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@DrSin, @ThePoison, thank you, my appointment is on march 3rd, and thanks to this lovely community i at least have a reason to keep it... and that's a start.
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@ Seductive Cheeto, the military is most certainly not the place for me honestly. But i know you're trying to help me by offering a reason that may help me so thank you.
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@Dayshift, thank you, i will go to my appointment on the 3rd so I can come back and tell all of you kind people that i did so. It's a small reason, but one that i can hold onto so thank you.
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@JustCallMeCozy, thank you. All these comments have helped me a great deal and as i have mentioned to others, given me a reason to at least go to my first appointment. I don't think I need a big reason to be completely healed but having small reasons to keep making the next step in the process will be enough.
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@Chapped Ass, thank you, i will keep finding small reasons to take the next step and eventually I'm sure I'll get to a better place.
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@Petersquatch, i hope you get there too, I'm going to take your advice (maybe not by filling the void with food, but finding small reasons to move forward for a few minutes longer)
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@Diade, The mere fact that you are making conscious decisions regarding your mental health is a huge step in the right direction. As someone who has battled his inner demons for over 25 years I just have 2 small suggestions to aid you on your journey. 1. Shower every day, even if you don't feel like it. Simply get in the shower and let the water run over you for 5 minutes at least. Trust me it helps. 2. And this might be hard depending on where you live and being winter but go outside. Find an open spot and sit. Just sit. For a few minutes take in your surroundings. If you can, run your fingers through the grass. Stay in touch with someone, anyone, even if it is here. You aren't alone. Don't forget that.
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@Diade, my man, life just kinda sucks in general. That being said, you gotta look for your silver linings. There are days when I feel like garbage, feel like no one likes me and I'm a burden and all. A few days ago a new roommate moved in (she'd planned on moving in with the rest of us, but was held back for a bit) and since she's been here (only one full day, one night and one afternoon) it seems like I'm almost invisible to everyone else who lives here as well. Made me just a bit upset and wasn't really feeling wonderful. That being said a little later I went to McDonald's and got food. The person in the drive though was a TA for one of my previous classes, and though she'd taken my order before, this time she'd asked about me, since she thought I'd looked familiar. I reminded her and we talked for a minute and I left. Though it might seem a bit dumb, that was my silver lining of the day(s). It actually made me feel a bit better.
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@Arealchocolatechip, (2/2) Point being, there's gotta be a silver lining somewhere. Some victory in your life somewhere, some small source of happiness however insignificant or small that source is. If you focus a bit on it, it can help you feel a bit better. That and you need a bit of time. Today would probably be a day that I would have been really down, but its been alright so far (fingers crossed it stays that way). I understand life isn't easy and usually its REALLY unfair, but if you take it slow and focus on the stuff that makes you happy or means something to you or your silver linings or whatever, then I'm thinking you'll be doing a bit better. I'm also thinking its a good idea to see a therapist or talk to someone you REALLY trust. Those seem to work a bit too typically
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@Diade, I’m sorry to hear of your struggle, but I am glad you know you’re not alone. I understand the “want to cancel” feeling, I get it all the time, because I feel ashamed to admit I’m not okay. I know you’ve heard 100 times, but it’s always okay to not be okay. And no matter what, you will be okay one day if you keep working. Nobody can say it’s an easy path, but the path to good mental health is always there.
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@Diade, listen to the comments and just one step forward. I know the feeling. I feel like just waiting in a grave i already dug.
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@Diade, being aware makes you aware that you are unaware that you were aware anways. Prob doesnt help. Eh? Well tried.
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@Diade, do me a HUGE FAVOR, find me on here I comment a lot, and tell me on March 4th how it went, you don’t gotta spill details just come here and let me know if it helped or if it made a smidge into the right direction
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@DrSin, i will, thank you so much
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@Diade, no , not yet. March 4th thank me later
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@Diade, ask your doc if an emotional support animal is a good decision for you. Sometimes a reason to live is as simple as having to provide for something else. I got a pupper recently, and he helped so much more than the medication did.
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@Dayshift, way to shoot down somebody else’s opinion on improving your mental and physical health djckhead.
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This was surprisingly entertaining to watch
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@Sven and Otar, Metallica , band , but I won’t give you the song
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@DrSin, Unmistakable Metallica, but since I haven't really listened to anything new since Newsted "left", it sounds like a mash-up of The Four Horsemen and No Remorse. What is it, please?
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SeeeeeDs
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The bonk got me.
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Mandatory question requesting song name
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@BeeJaaBee, I replied to the wrong person look up
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@DrSin, Yeah I thought it sounded like them you joyous bastard
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These guys must be hardcore AF to follow Doom Guy through all the levels of hell
Hey, normally i try to avoid making these sorts of posts, but I feel kinda desperate. I'm feeling depressed. I had a reason to work through my depression and anxiety and issues, but suddenly that reason was taken back. (It's complicated and i feel stupid for trusting the way I did) I truly want a reason to make myself better but i cant see one and am asking here for help because giving up and waiting for my death just keeps looking better and better. I won't hurt myself because I'm too much of a coward, but i can fake being fine