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Am I the only one who can't see No Bark Noonan's comment. Anyways Mathgeek, I've been there. As cheesy and cliche as it sounds, you need to use every ounce of strength and courage in your being to make it past this point in your life. You need to find your inner peace and learn to love the life you have. In taking the step towards suicide you would crush your family. I hope that you figure out if you end your pain in such a way it will only start years of pain for your friends, family and loved ones. And as absolutely terrible and cruel as that sounds that's a little selfish. I hope this message helps broaden your idea on suicide and changes your mind. I'll be posting this repeatedly so it will catch your attention and also cause this app doesn't let my message through sometimes.
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@Mathgeek, Hey, MathGeek. I don't know if you're still here, I hope you are. I understand completely where you come from, believe me. I found my dad's revolver years ago, and when I was at my lowest, I loaded it. It was in my closet that I found myself, bud. I thought of a world without me, and realized that the one thing worse than death is your name fading from memory. Find love, a family, people who love you. Life is beautiful, it may not seem like it at the time, but people will cry for you. My worst fear is that you'll get this notification and you won't be here to see it.
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@Mathgeek, You want me to be straight up with you bro? I know you can definitely make it through this with something as simple as changing your perspective on the way you view life as a whole. I know what you're going through man, I've been through it myself and it was probably the most difficult experience I've ever had in my life. But it's not impossible to fix it. I used to think I couldn't be fixed either but d*mn man you don't have any idea how great I feel now that I can see things in a different way. Never give up man. It's a decision I'm sure you won't regret. Depression sucks man, I know from first hand experience of wanting to end it all but remember this, we can't always choose our circumstances, but we can definitely choose our attitude towards those situations. Hope this helped you bro. Live a good and long life.
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Am I the only one who can't see No Bark Noonan's comment. Anyways Mathgeek, I've been there. As cheesy and cliche as it sounds, you need to use every ounce of strength and courage in your being to make it past this point in your life. You need to find your inner peace and learn to love the life you have. In taking the step towards suicide you would crush your family. I hope that you figure out if you end your pain in such a way it will only start years of pain for your friends, family and loved ones. And as absolutely terrible and cruel as that sounds that's a little selfish. I hope this message helps broaden your idea on suicide and changes your mind. I'll be posting this twice so it will catch your attention and also cause this app doesn't let my message through sometimes.
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Am I the only one who can't see No Bark Noonan's comment. Anyways Mathgeek, I've been there. As cheesy and cliche as it sounds, you need to use every ounce of strength and courage in your being to make it past this point in your life. You need to find your inner peace and learn to love the life you have. In taking the step towards suicide you would crush your family. I hope that you figure out if you end your pain in such a way it will only start years of pain for your friends, family and loved ones. And as absolutely terrible and cruel as that sounds that's a little selfish. I hope this message helps broaden your idea on suicide and changes your mind. I'll be posting this twice so it will catch your attention and also cause this app doesn't let my message through sometimes.
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Hey. Most of you don't know me. My name is Mathgeek. I've commented here and there for about a year now. I just wanted to say you guys have made me smile the past few months, but recently I've been overcome with depression, and have made a formal decision to end my life. I've given up any hope of happiness. Don't reply to this comment with "Don't do it!" Or "You have so much to live for" because I don't. Thank you for the laughs, thank you for the smiles, and don't think much of me. Just know that you all have done good. Thank you. Have a great rest of your lives.
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@Mathgeek, I know this comment is unwanted. I've dealt with depression and self harm for much of my life. I know how hard it is. Though I don't know your particular situation, I understand how you're feeling right now. But I promise you that it gets better. It takes time, though. I hope that you have the patience for better days, because they're on the way. I promise. Think about the little things you'll miss- waking up at 3 am and knowing you still have time to sleep, long hugs, the smell of the air when you get close to the beach, that feeling you get when you listen to an amazing song, your head being thrown back in laughter, and infinitely more things. Please, just hold on. If not for yourself, then for us.
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I was only 9 years old. I pray to Shrek every night before bed, thanking him for the life I've been given. "Shrek is love" I say. "Shrek is life." My dad hears me and calls me a f*ggot. I knew he was just jealous of my devotion to Shrek. I called him a c*nt. He slaps me and sends me to go to sleep. I'm crying now, and my face hurts. I lay in bed and it's really cold. A warmth is moving towards me. I feel something touch me. It's Shrek. I am so happy. He whispers in to my ear, "this is my swamp." He grabs me with his powerful ogre hands and puts me on my hands and knees. I'm ready. I spread my ass cheeks for Shrek. He penetrates my butthole. It hurts so much but I do it for Shrek. I can feel my butt tearing as my eyes start to water. I push against his force. I want to please Shrek. He roars a mighty roar as he fills my butt with his love. My dad walks in. Shrek looks him straight in the eye and says, "It's all ogre now." Shrek leaves through my window. Shrek is love, Shrek is life.
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@Mathgeek, I'm a firm believer in the saying "Life is what you make it". With that in mind, read on, if you care to do so. Suicide, despite its word-origin and meaning of self-inflicted death, is - in my mind - a very selfish act. Let me explain. As many of you may or may not know, I'm in the Navy. The military is a bond forged through blood, sweat, and tears. Especially the tears. Despite how much crap the branches might give one another, or how much we give our fellow shipmates, soldiers, marines, and airmen, we share a lot of tears. I've known many people in my career in the USN, and I've had to leave a lot of good people behind due to orders and the like, which is bearable due to modern wonders like Internet voice-calling and the like, and there's always a chance we'd meet up later in the Fleet, but the ones that leave the biggest impression on me are the ones that I know I will never see again. The ones that I look at in my phone's contact list, or in my work e-mail's contacts and
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@Mathgeek, I'm not going to tell you not to do it for yourself. It's obvious it's past the point in which you enjoy yourself at all. It is also evident however that you care about your own opinion, otherwise you wouldn't take it above those who are telling you not to. Before you decide to take this final course of action however you need to take into consideration of those around you. Even if it seems you have noone, if you've got noone who gives a fvck whether you live or die, that seeming is wrong. There will always be people who love and care about you. You'll always have us. Forget about the sadness in your life for one moment, although I'm sure it seems impossible. Try to remember the love of those who love. If there is no love, imagine it for the future. Lock it up in your mind and keep it for a goal to strive for. Imagine a love that comes from not from any type of seemingly possible kinship. A love that manifests deep down in your very being. Try to find a place to find it.
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@Mathgeek, I hope this isnt the message you will leave. I dont want to think of this apl as one time someone commited suicide and posted his last words on this app. I will go ahead and quote you "Don't do it" you can be happy. There are always plenty of ways. This app for instance made you smile, now find more of those kind of things that make you happy. Do it for us, I might not know you but it's not worth losing a life. Every life is valuable no matter the size.
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@Mathgeek, I spent lots of Time in mental health care cause I attempted suicide by drinking bleach. Thing seem bad but what my therapist always told me was. "Don't use a permanent solution to a temporary problem". As you can see from all these comment, nobody want you too go. I'm sure people would be devastated with out you. Never give up hope because people do care about you. Think about all the positive things. Think about your family and friends, think about your future.
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@Mathgeek, Find something to live for. Unsatisfied with your job? Get a new one, military, police, firemen, they don't take a lot of schooling, but they will let you help people. Unsupportive family? Cut them out of your life. If they are good, spend time with them. I've dealt with depression, find something to live for.
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@Mathgeek, But it will! I'm not the best at advice, but bear with me please. Find something that you love to do or find music that you love listening to, start drawing and see if that helps you, learn an instrument, read a great book and then read more, watch a funny movie, find an video game worthy of being called art, learn about dinosaurs, try watching a new sport! There's so much that you can do and I want you to do all of it! If you've ever played Pokemon look up the Kanto Symphony and just sit back and listen to it, it feels so good to just listen to beautiful music or do something you love to do, find that thing.
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@Mathgeek, ... know that I will never see again. They were killed. Not by terrorists, or this vague new "enemy", or by a disgruntled government employee with a gun. They were killed by themselves. Constantly am I reminded of their presence, or lack thereof. Of the good times I had with them out on Liberty, and of what I did to fail them as a shipmate and as a friend. What did /I/ do to help them reconsider their ultimate choice? Nothing. I did nothing. "I didn't know", I keep telling myself. Did I really? Or am I finding an excuse for myself to cleanse my conscience of their blood? Honestly, I don't know anymore. There's one thing that I do know, though, and it's that there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about the bitter taste of that darned Folger's roast coffee that he bought, or her chopper 'Good morning' as I walked through the door. There are many more things that seem... empty without them. Like time itself is missing a piece. I'm not going to tell you "don't do it"
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@Mathgeek, I've been in the suicide lane myself. I don't know what has led you want to do this, but I know that it has to be traumatic for. I ask you to not give up and give in to hopelessness. You have to fight. Look deep into yourself, fight, and defeat this hopelessness. Easier said than done, I know, but such is human nature to overcome and not give in- no matter how difficult or bleak your path seems. I whole heartedly swear my undying belief that you won't give into despair. Fight!
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@Mathgeek, not that some miracle is going to happen to fix things overnight, but there are things worth living for. Even if you haven't found it yet, you will. Whether it be love or a new opportunity or a joke that makes you smile, there will be something worth living another day for. Please don't go.
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@Mathgeek, look, I know you've had time, and yes we don't know what's been hurting you, but the first step to recovery *is* to be open to people who care about you. I was once down a depressing route for almost a year and a half. I quit my job, I loathed around all day, and pretty much I was a depressed suicidal teenager. But the one thing I always knew was if I was strong enough, I could make it past my hard times, and I consoled anybody close to me, or who would just listen to me (the fp community *really* wants to be there for you), and eventually somebody spoke some light into me. The thing is, I want you to be able to console us about why you've come to the decision. If *this* many people are begging you to rethink and explain why, please listen, they're only trying to help you :(
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@Mathgeek, I think everyone at one point in there life goes through this. And I'll tell you a secret. Only the strong ones make it through. Be strong and don't give up. Look how many people who BARELY EVEN KNOW YOU care about you even still. Go ask a friend for help or talk to someone. Seriously life gets better all the time.
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@Mathgeek, ... or "You have so much to live for". I don't know you. You're a name on a screen to me. But you're a person to someone else. A friend to another. A son or a daughter, or a grandchild to a couple more. A co-worker, perhaps, to yet another person. /You/ may think your life is meaningless, but that's just to yourself. Your presence makes up a part of a world to many dozens, or possibly hundreds of others. Life can be unfair, or unjust. But it's that way because you've made it that way. You know, the more I think about it, the more I think that Life is not just what /you/ make it, but what /we/ make it. Don't make someone else's life unjust, or unfair, or miserable because you think you're alone in the decision of suicide. Because you're not. Your decision weighs on the shoulders of many others as well.
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@HowToGetDownvotes, also I'm really disgusted at the people who say "do it" and what not. You think your being funny and a troll but your not. I'd rather see a comment saying first on every picture then ever hear someone saying "do it" there's an app for you special people called Ifunny go look it up and leave the stuck pixel community forever.
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@Mathgeek, IM NOT TRYING TO BE MEAN BY TYPING IN CAPS I JUST WANT YOU TO SEE THIS. CHECK INTO A MENTAL HOSPITAL, OR FIND SOMETHING LIKE THAT. IM NOT JOKING. YOU HAVE TO CHECK YOURSELF IN OR YOU'RE GONNA GO THROUGH WITH IT. GET THERAPY AND COUNCILING. IF NO ONE ELSE IS GOING TO HELP YOU THEN YOU HAVE YO HELP YOURSELF OKAY? THIS COMMUNITY MAY NOT KNOW YOU BUT WE STILL LOVE YOU AND CHERISH YOU LIKE FAMILY. WE ARENT WITH YOU TO HELP YOU, DO IT FOR YOUR OWN SAKE.
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@Mathgeek, tell me, who do you have in your life. Your parents, siblings, friends, or even a significant other perhaps? How will they feel once you're gone? Medicine is amazing. You say you have a chemical imbalance? Certainly there is some way to at the very least alleviate it. Heck, what about flat out shots of dopamine to assist?
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@Mathgeek, Then wait. Things really do get better as you get older, you'll have more to do and more to live for. You don't have a lot of things to do at the moment, but new choices always open up. If you're social, try a support group, if not, try a therapist. If you're religious (and social) try a church group.
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@Mathgeek, the fact that you can't do the stuff Archie just suggested isn't the point. The point is to find something happy. I'm not sure how it feels to be going down suicide lane, but both my mother and father do. Both of them lousy both of their parents at relatively the same time, they both had best friends who killed themselves, and they had literally nothing. That was when they were both twenty or so. They are now fifty and parents of a sixteen year old (me) along with four other kids. The point of this story is that if you take your own life, you may just cause someone to take theirs, and stuff that could happen in the future won't. Who knows? It may be good things, or it may be the worst days of your life, but that doesn't matter in the slightest. PLEASE DON'T DO THIS
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@It doesnt exist, I've gotten so much "help", but it's done jacksh!t. Meds, therapy, so much more. Cutting alleviates stress. Attempted suicide has made me happier in the moment than ever before, but the moment one fails, I sink deeper. I want to die at this state of depression instead of lower when I may want to kill someone else. I'm a harm to myself now, but I'll e a harm to others later.
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@Mathgeek, but it's not, guy. It's only a permanent pain. For you, and those around you. And no, those around you will not be happy that you're gone. They may not say, show it or even know it, but there are those who you mean an awful lot to. Just tonight, it's been proven to you several times within our community that complete strangers care about you. No matter anyone's opinion on Jesus, I'll be praying for you. Please don't give the darkness another victim.
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@Mathgeek, I read farther up that you're a minor. You've not reached adulthood and you already want to end your life. I'm not going to give you a speech saying why you shouldn't, because everyone else has... Instead, I'll give you a little bit of personal advice. I was depressed for a lot of my high school years. I was bullied, hated and didn't find solace in much of anything. I was going to commit suicide, but my sister found out and talked me out of it. It wasn't the best moment of my life. I had to go through therapy. But now, I'm 24 and have a decent job. I stopped blaming everything around me and turned myself around. I look back and think about the reasons I was going to commit suicide and now they seem incredibly stupid. You may not feel like things are going to change as you get older, and I'm not gonna lie, they might not. It's up to how you lead your life. If you sincerely feel that you must do this, at least confide in someone other than those on the Internet.
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@Mathgeek, please man we don't wan you to go, I don't know what to say other than please stop. Not to be a baby right now but your making me cry these stories are all too familiar to me. I attempted suicide an failed. Now I'm disabled in parts of me. You don't want to live with the consequences if you fail. So don't even attempt it. Man you need to live a good and FULL life. Don't think there is no hope for you because there is.
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@Mathgeek, your Reddit has nothing more current than 4 years ago, but you seem extremely intelligent. If the brain surgery is your one shot to live AND be happy, not to sound rude, but if you've decided to end your life, I know you feel satisfied that you'll be the one to do it, but the surgeon is a professional for a reason, with extremely invasive surgerys yielding 90%+ success rate, and most of the cases that failed were low chance in the first place. Please math, try to look into the surgery before you call it quits for good :( we all want to live meaningful and happy lives, and i think this is your shot at living a full life by researching and attempting the surgery, you'll be one of the bravest men I'll have ever come across, and if you choose suicide for solace, I'll respect the decision but just know there was a way out. Please think it through, we only want to help.
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@Mathgeek, please call the suicide hotline. Not to "talk you out" of killing yourself, but they know what you are going through. Just to show you that you aren't alone, and your sadness will go away. (We may not know you personally, but we treasure you as a person and we are all genuinely worried for you. We want you to be happy, enjoy life, and stay on this earth.)
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@Mathgeek, i dont think you understand how valuable life is. I have known psychopaths devoid of any emotion, crippling them and leaving them unable to operate in situations where others might know how to act. I've known several people with physical and mental disabilities from being unable to do simple addition or form proper sentences, to paraplegics who rely on others for everything. I know a couple people myself included who have struggled with depression where you stare at the ceiling after waking up for hours on end wishing and hoping someone would help, or this feeling would go away. I've had anxiety attacks for what seemed like days but lasted a few minutes. I've known people who've been abused their entire lives and live with grandparents who have dementia and are turning senile who never said a kind word to me in my life always rebuke. My parents are bipolar and oblivious and i live in the shadow of my older sibling. Life seems so unfair. It seems the pain wont go and it only
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@Mathgeek, I really want to say something, but I don't know what... You said your a minor, how old are you? I know there no point telling you to think about your family because I'm sure that's all you have been thinking about for so long.. I'm intrigued by this chemical imbalance.. does it have a name I can research?
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@Mathgeek, I don't comment on this app that often, but I really feel the need too right now. I'm pretty much a book definition of an introvort, so I don't have that many friends and because I moved I lost my best friend of damn near 10 years. I thought it didn't hurt me, but the school I went to I felt like a really didn't fit in. It went fine for the first year I was there, but the second year I started to slowly lose my sanity. It got to the point where I was hyper paranoid about people judging me. It got to the point where I could not go to school. This was just the beginning of my depression. Cont...
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@Mathgeek, it only gets worse. It feels like you've entered the abyss. Nothing is there. Why live? Because life is only important as long as you have a purpose. Do me a favor and if you really want to do this, then before that go and do something social. Volunteer and see the happiness you can bring to a hungry child's face. As someone who has been near your path, i know social engagements especially being a bipolar sociopath is the biggest thing that can change you. Look to the arts or religion. In death's stead allow it to consume you and devote yourself because you will find satisfaction. Whether it is music or dance or other cultural aspects, even if you cant feel as i know someo
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@Mathgeek, And it only gets worse. So why live? Life is only worth the things you've done with it. You have unlimited untapped potential. Being a bipolar sociopath especially you need social engagements. So if you are really set on this, then do me a favor before you do. Go and do something social whether its volunteering or learning an art. Make friends and let them understand who you are so they can help you. Even if you cant feel, satisfaction can come from the arts. I felt i had no skills until i picked up the trumpet. It held my heart all along and all i had to do was find it. And guess what?
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@Mathgeek, I suck at it still but its made my life a hella better. In death's stead, your true purpose in life whether its traveling the world learning, or cooking for the needy even when you dont feel empathy or sympathy, it will consume you. You need a purpose and people who can help you find it. If you're a minor it doesnt mean you cant go out and do anything an are stuck in a rut. Try to find purpose atleast once, please.
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@Mathgeek, please don't go. Everyday is precious. Imagine your life, everyone who cared of you.Imagine their reaction. Would you rather kill yourself and let everyone suffer, or would you stay and make people happy? We all care for you, except some idiots who think it's funny to say "do it", but please, don't...
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@Mathgeek, I forgot to mention that I got hurt mentally pretty bad. I was a person that gave kindness to anybody even to people that nobody likes. Since then I only socialize if I'm forced to. Otherwise I just hang out in the "shadows" because I know I will be hurt again if I open my heart like I did before I got hurt. To continue my story, I stopped doing anything social and I was able to do that because I started an online school. That only ended hurting me because I felt like no one cared for me. I top of all of this nothing I do seems to be going right for me. My depression got to the point where nothing I did made me happy, I basicly was just a camera for my life. I had no emotions expect sadness for 4-6 months. But my uncle called me to ask me if I wanted to fix some farm equipment, one of my favorite things to do. That was one of the first times I actually felt happy and thought things were going right for me. Things started picking up from there, until reconently. Cont...
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@Mathgeek, I'm not going to tell you what to do, I don't know you, and you don't know me... But I had such an adrenaline rush from Snowboarding for 4 days last December, that I've dedicated the next 2 years of my life, just to get back to the snow. Maybe something to consider? I don't know... That's just me.
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@MrSmiles, My grandpa and grandma were in a really bad car accident, my grandpa didn't make it and my grandma survived by a fuvking miracle. They had to rip the car open to get her out. I basicly witnessed what would happen if I were to die by suicide or otherwise. I have never seen any of my family members as sad as they are. My dad was pretty much broken for almost a month. I can not put into words how sad, angry, stressed and all other emotions he was. He still is feeling sad and stressed and its been almost two months since that accident. I don't think he has done his job since it happened. I unfortunately fallen back into depression since my grandpa died, but I have not even thought about killing myself. Because I now know what it would be like for my family and other people who care about me. Please just don't kill yourself I don't want another family to experience the hell I have seen.
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@Mathgeek, Look, I know I'm just a random person on the internet you've never met, but if you go through with this you have no chance to find happiness, you may not think you have any happiness now, but if you commit suicide your chances of being happy are 0%. The chance of being happy, the chance the sun rising again in what seems to be an everlasting night, is worth it. Be strong, my friend, so that one day you can look back at this and say "Everything's going to be alright."
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@MrSmiles, Please for the love of all things holy don't commit suicide. It may seem like the only option but it isn't. I was at the point you were but I got a chance to do what I loved to do and I finally felt happiness and so the light at the end of the tunnel. And even thought some serious shjt went down with my life I still am in a better spot then I was before I did what I love to do. If your still reading these comments please reply to me and promise me that you will grab live by its balls and go out and do what you love.
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@GreenDayGirl, people who want to die leave a note for someone to find. People who want attention announce it. This is juvenile and people like you- people who act on empathy and feelings before thinking about the situation- fuel this kind of egotistical cry for "help". People like you are a thorn in my side. This narcissist shouldn't be pitied for his tantrum. He should be reprimanded for ruining the atmosphere. I come here for humor. Not to see some doctored sob story of a twelve year old.
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@Mathgeek, My girlfriend was suicidal early in our relationship, and it killed me to know somebody would think that taking their own life would solve any problems they are facing. All she needed was somebody to talk to, all she needed was somebody who was there for her and showed that they cared. I've been a part of this community for a little over a year and I can't begin to describe how close everybody is to one another without actually knowing each other. We are all like a family, and you being part of this community makes you family. We are here for you man. Whatever you're facing, we are here to help you smile and help you get through it. Things always get worse before they get better, and if you're feeling your worst right now, to the point where you think ending it all is the solution, then it can only get better, right? We are all here for you, you can talk to us and we will be quick to help you out with whatever you need, you're family to us man, and many more people.
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@Mathgeek, listen man. Before you do anything, I want you to forget everyone, forget your job, forget your responsibilities, everything. Take a vacation from your ordinary life. Don't have the money? Take out a loan. Go see the beautiful world and find peace. Every place is beautiful depending on how you look at it.
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@Mathgeek, Before you do, consider these words. I want you to go out, before you do it (I pray you won't), and live that full last day, helping other people. Help a lady cross the street, pull someone's weeds, it could be anything. I want you to look them in the eye. The feeling they feel is a feeling you might not, but you can imagine it as all your pains being lifted. Remember the way their eyes twinkle and the smile they give you. As you stand on your own execution block, remember that. Consider, instead of ending your life right then, you could live another day, and bring more joy to people, then end it tomorrow. And you could make the same decision the next. A life full of your sadness could bring countless hapiness to other people. We love you. I love you.
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@Mathgeek, Crikey, I want to sleep so bad, but my brain won't stop thinking about this. You're still hoping to find something that will mean something to you in one of these posts, as far as I can tell. This means you still have a chance to live. Your body wants to keep living. It has been with you every moment of your life and it knows you better than you know yourself. This may sound odd, but I'm an odd person so please, live for your body if you don't live for anyone else. It's there for you when no one else is ad sometimes it's your only friend. Don't let it down. I have a picture taped on my wall that goes on about te phrase "A cry for help" and how it's stupid because someone is asking for a reason to not die, not asking for attention or anything and I keep thinking of it whenever I think of you. I really wish I knew the right words to say so that I could help you, but they just aren't coming to me and I'm thinking you might already be asleep as most people tend to be this late.
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@Mathgeek, get a good therapist and physiatrist they helped me find the right meds and ways to not be as depressed. Clinical depression never goes away completely but it will get better if you try. Confine in your family they care and if they can, get you the help you need. I tried twice because of some stupid boy. I want to get married and have a family but I can't do that if I'm dead neither can you.
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@Mathgeek, I can't say I understand what you're going through or how it has affected you. I can't really tell you not to hurt yourself when I still contemplate the same thing. I doubt this comment will have any more of an effect on you than the dozens of other ones before it... okay I'm going to stop myself right there. I was going to write a big speech, but you've heard it all before so I'll just be honest. Don't do it. I don't want you to die. I'd like to be the hero that was able to convince you not to do it, but odds are I won't be. But I still don't want you to do it. Maybe because I don't want to feel guilty, maybe because I sympathize with you, maybe because of some other reason. But in the end, I and all of the other kind people on this app would rather you live longer and not commit suicide. And that has to count for something.
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@Mathgeek, please don't do it. I'm not very good with speeches but I'm going to give it a shot for you. I don't know you or who you are I don't know where you live or have lived. I don't know what you have done or who you have met. But I know one thing it's that you claim to be broken and that you believe that you don't belong here but I tell you that that isn't true. We all belong here and we all have a role to play whether it's for 1day or 100 years we all live our lives being ourselves being a part of the world around us playing our part in it no matter how well our actions affect the world. But that's only if you strive to do your part no matter how good or bad it seems to be at the time. Humanity has strived to find its place, it's reason for being and we even argue over what that reason is. And we have come very far as a whole anyway because each man woman and child advanced as a whole because they lived, breathed, learned, taught, and died as best they could.
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@Mathgeek, what I'm trying to say is if go through with this you will never reach your potential, never play your part and contribute to humanity. You are special even if you don't quite see it yet, if you end it now you will leave this world and you leave it without your part being done and the rest of us will feel it until it all ends. Please don't, please don't leave us alone here we need you just like you need us........ I hope I helped and I hope you read this..... Please God let him read this....
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@Mathgeek, I hope I'm not too late but I've been there before. I thought I was scum and the world would be better without me but it wouldn't be. The same goes for you. The world would be a much worse place without you. Think logically for a second and realize how selfish you're being. Think about your family and friends and how they'll feel when you're gone. What how everyone on this app will feel? I'd advise that you don't do it but in the end I have no control over you. All I can do is to tell you that suicide is the most selfish thing you can do and everyone in this app will be extremely upset if you're gone.
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@Mathgeek, honestly man, someone I cared about died... I still lose sleep to this day. Whether you know it or not, people care about you. You stay alive for those people so they don't have to face pain. The world's better with people like you. We need the differences to make us realize none of us are perfect. We all have a long way to go. All it takes is that one day for everything to change. Wait for it.
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@Mathgeek, If you could tell us the state (if in the US) you are in we could try to get one of us to come and try to spent a little time with you and talk about what is happening face to face, and maybe take you out to show you a good time, just to see that this world is too good to leave. You are needed somewhere, and you were put on this earth for a reason. All you have to do is find that reason.
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@Mathgeek, life sucks. We all know this. The reason most of us get up every morning and keep going isn't because of the job promotion we might get or the chance to see a ex who just dumped us. We get up, we live each day, because of the small insignificant things that make life worth living. Give yourself one more day, go outside and smell a flower. Watch the clouds move across the sky. Go to the lake or beach and watch the waves. Feel the wind on your skin, remember how good it feels to eat after a long day. Or the relief of a really good bowel movement. Life isn't about the things going on around you, it isn't about what society wants you to do. Life is about the little things. Life is about living. It can be hard sometimes, but if you take the time to live in the present and find the little things that make you smile, then you win. The pressures of society makes everyone miserable but that's not what matters. Living, not just existing, is what matters. This is for EVERYONE.
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@Mathgeek, Mathgeek, I don't know you but I love you. Everyone here loves you and it's a shame to leave that behind. No matter how small, scared, and sad you may be, just remember what you'll leave behind. Everyone has loved ones whether they are there in person or not and those loved ones should not be left behind. Many people will cry tears of sadness over your loss if you but many more will cry tears of joy if you stay. Mathgeek, stay and share a laugh with us. Look at the update, read and leave funny comments, just stick around. I love you and I am sure that the rest of the community does as well despite the trolls you may face. Do not leave behind the joy that is still left in the world even though you may be having a hard time seeing it. We will all miss and mourn you but it very kind of you to not let us. You ask us not to think much of you but there is no way that we will not. We take care of each other in this community and you can always talk to us when you need to. 💕
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@Mathgeek, I'm in the same boat you are. The ones I love slip away from me, and I don't find much pleasure in anything anymore. Even in the moments I'm happy, my mind drifts to the fact that these moments end. Ending it all looks comfortable and inviting. No more pain, and no chance to inflict pain on anyone else. It sounds liberating. But I know it's a waste. I know my life will get better, maybe tomorrow or maybe in a decade from now. I am determined to make my life count. It doesn't matter if love isn't enough for you, it's enough for the people who care about you. Eight months is nothing compared to a lifetime. Power through it. Giving up accomplishes nothing. And I know that surviving this will be hell - I've survived multiple bouts with it. But it gets easier every time. Find love somewhere, and hold to that.
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@Mathgeek, ... I have insomnia, a spinal condition causing me to have severe pain 24/7, and I work 80 hours a week, I'm unhappy but I find my own little reasons to keep on, and if you're still alive I want you to always think there is someone out there who has it worse. And never take the east way out if the better option is harder man.
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Am I the only one who can't see No Bark Noonan's comment. Anyways Mathgeek, I've been there. As cheesy and cliche as it sounds, you need to use every ounce of strength and courage in your being to make it past this point in your life. You need to find your inner peace and learn to love the life you have. In taking the step towards suicide you would crush your family. I hope that you figure out if you end your pain in such a way it will only start years of pain for your friends, family and loved ones. And as absolutely terrible and cruel as that sounds that's a little selfish. I hope this message helps broaden your idea on suicide and changes your mind. I'll be posting this twice so it will catch your attention and also cause this app doesn't let my message through sometimes.
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@BrowncoatsUnite, that person needs to be banned. Not that account I mean his/her/it's device should be boult allowed to connect to this app. I don't know how the banning system works for this app. Anyone that says anything like that should, well I don't want to talk about death at this moment in time, but be shown harm in some fashion. Idfk. I still can't see that fvckers comment which irritates me more because I can't slap a big fat downvote upon them.
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Off topic, but since I only get on funny pics at night, I would like to wish Murcuh a happy birthday and quote a few lines from the song "Chicken Fried" by Zach Brown Band: "I thank God for my life, for the Stars and Stripes, May freedom forever fly, let it ring. Salute the ones who died. The ones who gave their lives so we don't have to sacrifice all the things we love, like our chicken fried, cold beer on a Friday night, a pair of jeans that just right, and the radio up."
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@Mathgeek, So you are told that your life is precious, you have so much to live for, very flowery stuff. But if I may, some advice; your life may be terrible. You may actually not have much to live for, or maybe you don't consider it precious. But the fact is, death is a null function. As long as you exist, no matter how dissatisfying your existence, you are of value. As soon as you stop being alive, you lose that. In essence, being alive is better than being dead, even if you are to be miserable, because at least you can 'be' something. In death, you are a vacuum. In life, you are matter. In its barest form, life is numerically superior to death, because life has modifiers. You can live happily, sadly, angrily, etc. Death has no modifiers: dead is dead, flat out. As long as you live, there will always be positive value to your existence, in comparison to death, which has no value. Anyway, depending on what kind of person you are, that was either helpful or super depressing. Good luck!
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@Mathgeek, Make the right decision, kid. How can you be sure ending your life will bring you peace and happiness? It sure won't bring the people in your life any peace or happiness. It's just selfish. After all that has been done for you, you want to just give up. How is that fair for anyone? Like I said, selfish. Put yourself and your feelings to the side and go serve somebody. Go feed the homeless or something that puts others first. Maybe then you will realize the value in life.
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@Mathgeek, buddy, I have been in your shoes before. Feeling like nothing matters, nobody cares, everything is working against you. Trust me when I tell you this: it gets better. I know everyone will tell you that but there are things you can do to make it better. Go see a therapist. I know it sounds dumb but having someone to talk to and give you advice really really helps. It helped me turn from suicide a while back. Please don't disregard this comment as another commenter on the Internet who doesn't understand. Please see this comment as a person who has lived in your shoes, reaching out to you. Please give your life a second chance. Please go get help and please talk to someone. I guarantee that it will help. Please. Your loved ones will miss you when you're gone. Don't make them suffer. Don't let yourself suffer. Get help. Be strong.
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@Mathgeek, Don't do it, my cousin committed suicide and left the whole family devastated, this was two years ago and his mom still crus everyday for him. I do not know what your beliefs are in after death, if you believe in heaven then I hope you go there if you choose to go down this road but if you don't then maybe I can scare you out of taking your life away this early in the game. Once, one dies, there is nothing but darkness forever. Just imagine forever, it is literally for the rest of time and there is nothing. That thought scares me every time I think about it and convinces me to never commit suicide. This life is short but it's what we chose to do with it that give it the ability to prolong the end. We all die in the end and no one knows for certain what happens in the end but there is no reason to skip ahead and find out early. Even though I have no idea what you look like or who you are as a person, my only wish for you is to not end your life b/c it will bring pain to all
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@Mathgeek, life is not to be measured in years and months but by good things that happen, think back upon past memories of say a winter holiday or Halloween when you were happy, if you live up to your username then you must like math or be good at it. Design something like a catapult that flings watermelons or tires or baseballs. Go light ants on fire with a magnifying glass if that's what you want to do. Rent a dunk tank and fill it with cola, tape mentos to some one and drop them in.
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@Mathgeek, I'm so sorry you are going through this right now. A lot of people are saying that it will get better and it does. I went many periods when I was younger when I was more than ready to not live any longer. I had and still have a chemical imbalance but it can treated with prescription medication. It's so hard to see how many good and healthy choices you have in front of you when you are stuck in this bubble of depression. If I went through with suicide I wouldn't be married and have a daughter right now. I went to school and am a psych nurse because I want to help people who feel they have no other options. Please reconsider, this hard time right now is just a drop in the bucket of your life. You have much better days ahead of you even if you can't even fathom them existing right now. Before you do anything, go to your nearest ER or urgent care or even call 911. Who cares what other people think or say. This is your precious life. Not theirs.
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@Mathgeek, go and get some help, some medication. It will help. You are still young and changing hormones added on top of having a predisposition for depression is a lot for someone to deal with. It's okay to take medicine for this. Just like people with diabetes need to take insulin for their body to function. It's okay to ask for help and to have support during difficult times. I don't know your situation and I'm not going to pretend to, but there is always other options. No one wants to see you get hurt.
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@Mathgeek, I don't know if I'm too late or not. I sincerely hope not though, and I won't write a long paragraph about God or anything, but you need to take another week to at least go out with someone, and try to have a good time. There are limitless possibilities of what can happen if you wait, but only one if you end it now. Take the chance of living on, even though you may not want to right now. Take the chance for having a future with the love of your life. Take the chance and don't give up just yet.
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I believe I've responded to every comment worth responding to. Thanks for trying, but I am literally not fixable. They only potential way is through intrusive ad potentially harming brain surgery. Which will not happen. I am ending my life before I can live a false life of misery. I'll keep responding for a short bit more before I take my second-last sleep. My last one I will awaken from.
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@Mathgeek, you are making a terrible mistake but your life it is your choice. Understand that life is an impossibly unlikely gift that shouldn't be thrown away. You came here to speak with people I believe you seem to care about at least a little bit which leads me to believe maybe you subconsciously wanted convincing. You will be sorely missed by your loved ones and us. There are too few good people in the world for one to take their own life
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@Mathgeek, the reason is live for us. Excuse my saying so but you're being extremely selfish by doing this. You tell everyone you're going to commit suicide and while I understand you want convincing, you're making it way too hard. None of us know you sure, but we know of you and we know you are an actual person and we all believe you shouldn't throw your life away. Life is all about sensations, and I love all of them good or bad because I know I'm alive and I'll continue being alive for a long time hopefully. There were an infinite amount of outcomes for your spirit to be born, and the end result was you, don't squander your life just because you think you're unfixable. Medical science is amazing, it might not be too long before they have a cure. That's all I have to say on the matter.
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@Mathgeek, I don't know how late I am on this. Or whether it will make any difference. I don't care if I am late or if it does make a difference. It has become apparent that there is no way to stop you. I suppose you view your death as your one true way of being happy. I commemorate you for that. I've enjoyed your comments whenever I see them. If it helps at all, think of it scientifically. You lack the chemical ability to feel happy. That means you have an OD of the negative chemicals. You aren't broken, just flooded. Again, I know it won't help. I want to let you know however, that you have created a huge impact on all of us here today. The famous ones and the ones that lie in shadows. We all want you to know, I think I can speak for almost all of us here when I say that we will never forget you and that we all care about you. So as we all read this and keep you in our prayers and minds, we hope that you rest in piece.
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@Mathgeek, you are stupid! Through the creation of atoms brought on by the deaths of thousands of stars and millions of years of evolution you were created as a part of a beautiful species, and you're just going waste all of that because "i cant feel happiness" BTW a brain surgery like you mentioned only has 2 outcomes: it either works or you DIE. Guess what? One of those outcomes means you can be happy and the other means you get what you wanted anyway. And another thing why the hell would someone who only has a small time left alive waste it glued to a stupid phone screen telling random strangers that he is quitting life. If i were you i would rather be remembered as the guy that died trying to fix his problem than as the guy that just quit because it was too much! Boo freakin hoo.
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@Mathgeek, think of it this way man. Surely your family members are going to remember you. How do you want them to remember you after you die? Do you want them to think of you and say "my family member killed himself when he was sixteen, cutting short a life that could have been amazing" or do you want them to remember you and say "my family member pulled through an extremely difficult time and was so strong that he was able to overcome his depression and live a full life." I know from your perspective this may seem irrelevant, but trust me, you need to pull through. Let death come to you in 70 years, don't take your own life when you have barely experienced life. Please, there is nothing you can't overcome. I hope that after you've seen the comments of all the people who care about you and want to help you, you will see how much you are giving up and abandoning by killing yourself. Please, it will break so many hearts if you are not with us in a few days.
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@Mathgeek, Who have you NOT turned to for hope? Have you given any thought to maybe turning to God for hope? I don't know if I can convince you but I know He wouldn't want you to give up. I don't care if the non-religious people think this is stupid nonsense I'm typing, I truly believe He can give you hope and love and grace and peace and healing if you need. Who's telling you you're not fixable? I'm saying you are fixable. I'm rooting for you, stranger.
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@Mathgeek, you're also not being selfish in the slightest. Or at least not more so than anyone else. It's your life do with it as you please. Smoke crack, fall in love, die, be happy. It's up to you. What's selfish is making someone continue to suffer when they want to end it. If the needs of the many truly do not outweigh the needs of the few then everyone should support you with what you want or need to do, no matter what it is. Instead people just say things to make themselves feel like a hero, or think that they're 'helping' when they're not. They make things worse. It's frustrating. It's infuriating. It's awful. It's not fair.
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@Mathgeek, ok so I believe you said in another comment that this chemical imbalance thingy is hereditary, correct? If this is true then a member of your family has probably gone through the same thing you are going through now. Whether this is true or not, you should still try to communicate with them. For one, we are just a bunch of faceless names. We will never be able to create a reason good enough to talk you out of this. However, many people who were planning to commit suicide and decided to talk to their families were actually able to have a heart to heart and realize they had no reason to kill themselves. Also I feel a chemical imbalance is no excuse. Especially since you won't even attempt to let it be fixed.... Honestly, I would let them operate... Worst comes to worst they screw up and you die anyways.... I'm probably too late for tonight but I hope you decide to look at your phone in the morning before you commit your final act.... And please consider my advice
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@Mathgeek, Please, don't do this. Reading your comment reminds me of a feeling that I keep trying to forget. I don't even know you, but please don't do it. I've known people who have killed themselves and knowing someone else is actually planning to do it is going to keep me up for a while. I understand if you choose to go through with it, though. It may be a miserable life to live for a while, but please don't put your family through the grief. It's an unexplainably painful feeling for parents to know that their own child willing chose to end it's own life. I feel like I'm talking a lot. You're the only one who can find a reason for you to live though, so I'm just going to go now.
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@Mathgeek, I'm not gonna tell you to stop, cause it's your choice. I don't have a reason for you to live either though you have to find one. But if you are going to go through with this, (personally I think you shouldn't, but again your choice) I just wanted to say I remember you from when you started commenting and I found your comments helped me get through the day when I was feeling down. You will be missed and I really hope you find something to live for. Goodnight...
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@Mathgeek, at least live long enough and explore this world enough to earn the right to be called a man. Being a 16 year old who quit life is the exact opposite of what manhood is about. Get off the internet and live life outside of your parents nest. Explore things that are actually dangerous and traumatizing as well as beautiful and exotic. And suicide is by far the most idiotic moral choice their is, those who choose so are idiots.
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@Mathgeek, All I can say is that I promise you that it gets better. I've been through some tough times where I didn't know if I could even make it one more day, but the fact is, those times WILL end and be replaced with better ones. Even very serious clinical depression can be overcome. I promise you that you have very good times ahead of you in your life; only those who have experienced the deepest sorrows can feel the greatest joy.
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@Mathgeek, if one of the reasons for doing this is because you think no one cares, just look at all of the comments asking you to not do it. Go to the 10000th pic and look at the pictures of all of the people who care. If this many people who don't know you, care there must be someone in your life who cares as well. Just remember that (I can't believe I'm saying this but) YOLO. Not in the way that people use it but in the sense that you are only alive once. When it's over you will never be able to be alive again and never be able to touch, smell, hear, see or taste again. I don't really know what else to say except look for the good things in your life, even if they are very small things. Maybe listen to music? It usually helps me if I'm feeling sad. I hope you reconsider your choice.
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@Mathgeek, I know I'm late to this, but here goes. The first time I tried to kill myself was the summer before third grade. The first time I remember being suicidal was before I could identify it (world/family better off without me, etc). Every day was a struggle. I don't sh1t rainbows now, but things are better most days. This is what my mom told me that actually helps. Imagine a pond, it's perfectly calm. You throw a pebble. That first little ring is you. It doesn't make a difference, not really. It's tiny, seemingly insignifigant. But from thet ripple comes another. And another. Until there are an infinite number of rings. None of those rings would be there without you. The smallest thing you do affects your enviroment in ways you can't even see yet. It sounds flowery, and being in the dark pit of despair you probably have cotton in your ears and a mask over your eyes that you can't get rid of. But take a deep breath and think of the ripples. Because without you...that may cause an
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@Mathgeek, Are you the oldest out of all of your siblings? I've been the oldest for almost 4 years now. I had an older brother who killed himself right before my two younger brother's birthdays. My mom couldn't eat anything for days and ever since he died I've felt broken and I shake when I think of everything he will never get to be there for. I'm sorry if my thoughts seem to keep changing positions at weird times. My brain tends to short circuit a little here and there when I share that kind f stuff or talk about suicide in general. I don't know what to say now. I can't leave because I know you life is still hanging in the balance between life and death and it's tipping a bit too far towards the latter. I can tell I'll be up for longer than I had hoped.
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@Mathgeek, one more thing. You said the skills you have don't affect anyone. I find this very hard to believe. You are so wrapped in your depression you can't see it, but something you do matters to someone. I know this will probably get me downvoted, but idc. Ezt is an option. I know two people who have done it. It helped incredibly. It's not a lifetime fix, but it got them out enough that they are still above ground today. I have held the hands of a terrifying number of friends who were suicidal, and I have had to call the cops on a coouple of them. Not everyone has made it out. Half the time I'm surprised I'm still here. But I am. The fact that you are reaching out says you're not ready yet. That's not shameful. That's the tiny bit of sarantonin in your brain trying to save you. No one can make this decision but you. We can not save you, not if you don't want to be saved. But we can sure as helI try.
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@Mathgeek, from you saying "don't say that my family loves me" well, I thought we all established that everyone in the comment section was a big family, connected with words. And if you say no one you know loves you, then you must not know us at all, but if you do know us, Scary Mike, MACWE, Invalid Chicken, Jamal, and so many thousands more, then I'd call you a big fat liar. For we love you, no mater what. This may not convince you to stop, then maybe the next thousands of words will.
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@Mathgeek, I'm not going to say don't do it - it's not my choice. But the reason why you're doing it (from what I've gathered) doesn't make sense to me. So you want happiness, which is totally understandable! But suicide won't give you that. It won't give you anything. You won't even know you're dead, because you'd be dead, so I don't see how suicide will make you any happier than you are now, or give you any relief at all. Can I just ask why the surgery "will not happen?" Honestly, it seems like that's the only "way out" - not suicide. I probably have no idea what I'm talking about, but maybe the reason why you don't want to receive brain surgery is because of your lack of happiness & hope, along with the other disorders? Please take a step back and reevaluate all of your options
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@Mathgeek, whoops, I said something wrong, I mean't that if you say you don't know us, then I'd call you a big fat liar. But if you do know us, Scary Mike, MACWE, Invalid Chicken, Jamal, and so many thousands more, then you should know that you are loved. Hopefully the last thing I said made sense, and helped a little instead of making things worse.
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@Mathgeek, I have struggled with depression too, maybe not as bad as you have but I know it sucks. I found something that prevents me from ending it and I think you can do the same. Also, even though most of us here on Funny Pics don't know much about each other you can obviously feel the family that we have all created. This community has helped me with my depression in the past and you should listen to them. We all have an admiration for one another that you can't find on anyother app. Plus life can only be lived once and we all love you enough for you to stay. ❤
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@Mathgeek, Mathgeek, I know it's probably too late for anything I say or do to help, and even if you do read this I don't expect it to change anything. I've been down that road before, and I've seen others go down that road before. My best friend struggled through suicidal thoughts for years and didn't tell me until just recently. If she had killed herself back when I hardly knew her I don't know what I would have done, I would have missed out on the greatest friend I ever had and I would have missed out on somebody who helped me through the same thing. Life is full of surprises man, you've lived through so much from the sound of it that you are a regular survivor. I admire people like you more than any James Bond or Bear Grylls or anyone really. People like you are the REAL survivors, the REAL adventurers. You've endured more pain than most of us will our whole lives and lived through all of it. It's really cool that you've made it. Get the surgery, it isn't a false life. It's yours.
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@Mathgeek, you have an outpouring of love and support from total strangers. We don't know you personally, but we still care for you. Life may seem hard and pointless, but don't lose hope. You are here for a reason but you have to make your life matter. You have a choice, you always do. I hope the choice you make is to be strong and fight to see another sunrise. If you need help, please contact a suicide help line 1800 2738255. It's anonymous and it's really helped me. But suicide is not how your story should end. We are all standing behind you and want to help see you through this. Be strong!
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@Mathgeek, look. I'm not gonna tell you not to do it, because I've been there too, and it's not easy making the right choice. I'm just gonna tell you that suicide isn't a "convenient" solution, and that you cannot be in more pain than the pain your loved ones will feel combined. You're an asshole for thinking that. I have toe uncles and a cousin who took their own lives, and I have never been the same, let alone my family. You might think you're making the right choice, but you're taking a b*tches way out. Sure, depression is hard, but it isn't impossible, and if there's a chance at happiness, even if it's dangerous or invasive, you should f*cking take it. You, believe it or not, do t have the right to hurt your loved ones by taking your own life, and f*ck you for ruining everyone's 4th of July. If you're going to treat us like your suicide note, at least f*cking listen to us when we try to help you make the right choice.
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@Mathgeek, think of it as fixing yourself, rather than changing you into a different person. It'll still be you, just not with the problem anymore. You're 16, considering suicide is way too damn common with kids now, it'll probably even pass. Correct me if I'm wrong, but in assuming you spend most if not all your time on the Internet and playing video games. A lot of people like that don't see life as worth living. Do some exciting shjt outside, find a girl, go on long trips. Seriously though, do the surgery, fvck that "I wanna die by own hands" talk, it's better to die trying than to run away
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@Mathgeek, I don't want to be a downer to you, but if you refuse brain surgery for fear of death, it seems death is what you want to face, so it can only be a win win for you. Please don't do what you're planning to do. People in your life may not seem to care, but they do. This is what my father had done, and I'd rather not go into detail, but his note said things along the lines of how his family does not care. We were deeply saddened. It will be the same for everyone who you have been a part of thus far in your life. I won't leave with some god quote. Just really think over what you are doing.
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@mathgeek, one more thing. One of the things that anchored me during some of the darkest times in my life (still pretty dark, with occasional sun rays) was my animals. I know, you're probably saying "what did she DO with those animals?" But it's what they did (and continue to do). They gave me something outside myself to love. I'm not saying that's what's right for you, or anyone else. But all the love that I don't have for myself, I have for them. It helps. It doesn't make everything better. Having a hereditary imbalance means nothing will ever be better, not really. But you find ways to work around it. The history of suicidal tendencies in my family is staggering. Of the four adults in my immediate family, three of us have thought of it (seriously), and two have attempted it on multiple occasions. I know I still think of it. I'm driving and suddenly have a picture of me eating a gun flash across my mind. It is a constant struggle. But it isn't a struggle you win alone. Idk where you
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@Mathgeek, I really hope you'll see this message. Trust me when I say that life gets better. I've been through some very rough patches, a few of which I thought I'd never make it another day. I was able to push through those times, and I'm so grateful that I did. I know what it's like to feel hopeless and filled with despair. I know that you feel like life will always be miserable and simply isn't worth living, but that is NOT the case. I can promise you from the bottom of my heart that life does get better. It gets so, so much better, and although you probably don't believe me, I can promise you that this is true. It is said that only the man who endures the most suffering and pain is able to experience the greatest joy. Please stay with us, my friend.
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