true after your first mental breakdown you lose track, im perfectly normal i even have a steady job, but the amount of times i think of or attemp it is frightening and at home? woo wee the mental breakdowns panic attacks and making myself cry from either talking to myself or the voices or just knowing i will never be loved or wanted, and how all i want is to have a loving wife and raise a kid but i cant bring myself to even try cause of how much i hate myself and deny it everytime someone tells me how lovely or kind i am, i just pick at my faults and ignore all the good slowly going mad and having stress and sh!t and greying hair since 18 and a beard thats greying at 20 and is worse now im 26, but aside all that yes you get used to it enough to PRETEND to be human outside of your home and entertain people at home for hours at a time never knowing just how broken you are cause when you interact with humans you're that good at faking happiness.....
@OmegaExceed, oh boy...ivomited my feelings here huh? its good to do this every so often you know? just seeing a therapist monthly is enough to make life managable. sorry for these 2 posts
@OmegaExceed, no one cares. Either kill yourself or don't. Nobody on here will be affected by your presence. This is an app for memes. Not your bullshjt.
@Butthurt Commenter, fair point
@Butthurt Commenter, hey, fück you. You're right but no need to be a weiner about it.
@OmegaExceed, dont apologize for shjt. I don't recall seeing any guidelines or rules for the comment section and as long as you aren't attacking anyone or created issues who cares if you want to vent? Life is hard enough as it is without having people tell you to bottle your emotions.
@ Mr Cuymenq, its fair i shouldnt use this app to vent this is a place of laughs and joy i shoulnd't ruin the mood, stull i appreciate the support friend
@OmegaExceed, glad you vented, as long as your getting help and sharing you’re going to be ok
@Butthurt Commenter, Your profile name is appropriate. The amount of whiny, insecure, petty butthurt on display is pathetic. You should be absolutely ashamed of yourself. Your an insult to humanity and less then a cockroach. Good day.
@OmegaExceed, We disagree on a lot of things, but i would never wish to see you hurt yourself or others, ever. In anyway. If you need to vent my dude then you go ahead and vent. You do what you gotta do to take care of number 1. And if that means venting online then so be it. Never apologize for doing what you have to do for yourself. 👍 Its good you are seeking help from a licensed professional. That is what they are their for. Take it easy and happy holidays.
@LaDarkProphet, You're* than*. Just a couple of typos. Also I'm not ashamed. I don't care.
@LaDarkProphet, thanks a lot man means a lot and hey no matter what we disagree on youll always be a friend to me :)
@Butthurt Commenter, I didn't ask if you cared, and I clearly said you SHOULD feel ashamed. Not that you do. I do not expect sub human peices of trash like yourself to be capable of compassion, empathy, guilt or shame. Hence why i said that you should feel ashamed of yourself for being such a clear and obvious peice of shiite ^-^
@LaDarkProphet, piece*. Another typo. Again I don't care. Good luck homie.
@OmegaExceed, hey bud don't you dare die on me this soon, you're my biggest customer. I love you man
@Church of Kizuna Ai, not going anywhere bud least not until i read all the doujin there is in the world :)
@OmegaExceed, wow.. reading this makes me think about how strong you are. Keep taking care of yourself like this and I hope you find your relieving 'light' soon. Don't be too hard for yourself, the only thing life is about is food and memes so we must appreciate and love it :) take care and I am praying for you x
@ThatBelgian, thanks a lot i just meant to let some steam out cause i was having a bad day, looking at all the support it truly shows how great a community this is :)
@OmegaExceed, You’re far from the first person to get serious for a moment here, and just because this app is supposed to be “all about the funny” doesn’t mitigate the fact that there’s also a community here, and if people can get into serious discussions about why they loved or hated The Last Jedi, you can freely speak your mind about your own mental fvcking health.
@OmegaExceed, yes it doesn't matter that you are here to 'just to let some steam out'. Look at all the reactions you got. Even though you are so far away from me, I genuinely care and I hope you will be happy no matter what one day! I am looking forward to a second rant about your life and you are always welcome to let the steam out
@ThatBelgian, :) thanks im doing much better now im taking a break from the app and settling down and seeing my therapist an extra few visits to see what to do it was a bad time in my life when i wrote this, my 2 aunties died and my family was mourning and a dear friend and coworker was killed in a hit and run, after the third funeral i snapped wrote this and reflected on my own life and how i wasted so much of it, i even thought if i could id trade my life for theirs...dark time i never wish anyone to be in that situation even 1 funeral is 1 funeral too much
Give me the meds please
@megamanx181x, but I prefer the meds I prescribe myself.
I’m incapable of holding a knife without the thought of using it on myself coming to my mind. I won’t, but the thought is still there.
I also avoid tall ledges for the impulse to jump off.
@I Are Lebo, I remember being on a cruise years ago, and always worrying that something would snap for just a moment in my brain and I’d hurl myself overboard
How many times have I considered death by my own hand? How many pieces of bread have you eaten?
The bards the best character on that show, his damn songs been stuck in my head for weeks
@TheHippie52, what show?
@Kurt Ambrose, the witcher on netflix
@TheHippie52, oh yeah, I’ve heard it’s pretty good