Staring a possible breakup in the face right now. Hourly flip between hope and heartbreak 😃 turns out when a woman says she’s into drinking and guns when you first start dating, she could be lying...fvcking odd if you ask me
@LV100Charizard, stay strong and hang in there mate. About six weeks ago I stopped talking to a girl that I spent nearly two years trying to make something work with, being on an off constantly and have nothing to show for it. It can be a sucker punch to the feels.
I think I can speak for all of FP community to say we love ya and keep on smiling . :)
@Dan Dan the fireman , Oh! Just found out she just deleted all trace of me off her social media. I deleted all of mine several months ago but I just now learned theres no trace of our two year relationship on her social media broadcasted to her world. Great news amirite
@Dan Dan the fireman , honestly... we connected two years ago after having a crush on eachother for several years. She made me so, SO happy. Like I wasn’t an outcast, like I belonged in the company of people for the first time in so many years. This past week she graduated with her BA and told me she was unhappy with life. She thought she’d be a traveller by now, somewhere in Spain. Told me a couple nights ago she wishes she’d met me again 3 years later. Felt like being shot in the chest. We wanted to get married. Honestly, I still want to. She makes me laugh and think and open up. I’ve watched a couple family members die over the past several years, I had my adventure in the USAF, had a failed engagement, rebuilt my entire life... I thought I found my human. My person. I’m crushed at the thought of losing this beautiful thing we had. But I’m biblically furious at the thought of her throwing it all away because she thinks she needs to fvck strangers in foreign countries
@Dan Dan the fireman , Full disclosure because I’m drinking, because I’m celebrating my graduation from Electrical Technical School (graduated today) alone; I’m pretty depressed. I really, REALLY thought I found my person. Now I’m just depressed. I’ve been in darker places than this believe me but I just feel hurt. I never believed in parenthood in general, but this woman was beginning to change that. Now I don’t trust her to stay faithful to the relationship in the future. Its painful as all get-out. Look I know I’ll recover one way or another. Its how it goes and it ain’t the first time. But the faith I’ve lost in in partnership won’t be won back soon and that’s fvcked, no two ways about it. I don’t know you, and I’m sorry to lay this on the community but I don’t have much human contact in the best of times so here I am.
@LV100Charizard, hey it’s all good to vent. I know exactly how you feel. I felt the same with the girl I was talking to. She made me so happy an complete it helped me drop a lot of bad habits, made me want to build a better me and get my life together, and yeah now I’ve gone down the wreckless path again. It’s a hard thing to accept and let go of.
I’ve noticed with relationships it can be hard cos people have such an expectation on what they have to have achieved or done in life, I’m not the kinda person to rush into marriage or commitment but when something feels right with someone it will always come before everything else, so yeah it’s hard when they don’t feel the same back.
Im drinking too ahah Friday night here , I’ll have this next one for you. Not trying to sound too lovey but I’m always happy to listen to someone offload a bit of frustration. We humans need each other
@Dan Dan the fireman , Cheers brother. I thought I took my time with this one, for the record. Its been two years. Her ex is a serious alcoholic who has had several run ins with the law and fvcked his life royally. I’m no saint when it comes to alcohol but I’ve lost plenty to drinking and I’m not like him. TL;DR : I’m not the drunken fvckwad she used to be with. Fvck man. I don’t know. I don’t know if this is worth it anymore. Dude honestly I never placed much stock in any social media, but knowing how much she does, the fact that she basically erased me is pretty fvcked up. Can’t wait to hear her explanation. Thanks for being here brother. No one else is
@LV100Charizard, mm yeah people can be way too swayed by the image they display on social media. I wish I had all the answers but I don’t coz I’m in a similar boat, been drinking some nights just to sleep cos of anger at the situation. (Not condoning that as a suitable practice for anyone else reading this) anyways I’ll keep talking you through this if you want. Takes time but small steps ay.
Slightly odd topic but you play any gaming platforms at all? That’s where I’m my social/supportive best ahah.
@Dan Dan the fireman , I appreciate this conversation more than you know man. I’m pretty sad dude. Don’t know where it’s headed. My family wants it to end and I’ve been trying so hard to avoid that but hope seems to fade fast.
I’m on Xbox mainly. I was on PC and Ps but life tends to get in the way. I can’t even afford a mic anymore.
@LV100Charizard, aw man. Well I’m happy I can be of help. I won’t give you advice on what to do cos I don’t know you or her or the situation and it’s not my business or my place to say, so I will just be here to listen, an talk.
One thing I will say and this is just my opinion, I find personally the feeling I got when in the lowest points with this girl I was talking to, I hated that she didn’t want me enough to take the steps, and not being wanted by her (who was everything to me) made me feel worthless, and yeah at times giving up just felt easier. What I needed to remind myself though is that dying feeling inside did have to be recognised, but it was a dying of the old version of me, the life I thought was gonna happen so to speak. It’s hard to get it in perspective when all the feelings are surrounding you but there is a future out there, where I, and you, will be healed and on a new page. I know that sounds kinda grim in parts, it can always get better though.
@LV100Charizard, I play ps4, and in a week I shall have a pc built. Happy to game an chill on them with you anytime.
@LV100Charizard, the thing about being torn down is that you can rebuild bigger, better, stronger. Hang in there and you'll look back happy because it got you to somewhere better one day.
@LV100Charizard, hope you’re staying strong dude. we still here. :)
Gee thanks Facebook
I think she needs better communication skills. That must be the problem in the relationship.
My fúckin' pc broke like 2 days ago. Shįt sucks man.